1. For someone so afraid of the dark I am amazed my thoughts do not cause me to wake up screaming in the middle of the night.
2. No matter how much I wish it, you are not mine.
3. I am not a writer. Putting my feelings on paper to try and make sense of them is not art. It is coping.
4. I never get scared when I don’t stop bleeding.
5. I don’t like to take my medicine. Not because I think I am better but because sometimes I like to pretend that I am.
6. There is a small part of me that always feels empty and I am afraid it will feel like that forever.
7. I am afraid to die because an eternity is an awfully long time to spend in heaven.
8. The amount of times a week I want to rip myself apart is greater than the amount of times I have been glad that I exist.
9. Sometimes I don’t eat. I just want to be in control of something I’m feeling.
9 things i will only admit to myself at 4 a.m. (via anxieusly)